Using These Tools To Re-Write A Trauma Story Can Bring Deep and Lasting Healing. Try Them For Yourself and Help Your Parenting.

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mom playing with sonTrauma.

Ugh. The mere word can cause us to tense up. Many of us have strong associations with that word, most especially when it has personal reverberations. When we have experienced trauma first-hand we can long desperately to put it behind us, and yet we feel unsure of how to move through it.

Is it even possible to heal from trauma, when you can’t change what actually happened?

Isn’t that a question? I am writing here not as a psychiatrist or psychologist, but rather as a human being who has spent her life fascinated with human emotions, resiliency and wounds of all kinds. And as a parent, who has felt the deep blow of trauma in my own early life and again in entering motherhood. 

I think there is tremendous hope to heal from trauma, and even to heal fully. And while there are some who may find this next statement surprising, I believe that this hope lies in the ability to be truly seen and heard by those who know how to listen, and in our ability to proactively re-write the personal stories we tell ourselves about our lives and experiences.

What is trauma, and how common is it?

mom in PJs on bed laughing with daughtersTrauma is the Greek word for “wound,” and used only to refer to physical injuries. Now, however, we also use the word to refer to emotional wounds. We know today that traumatic events can leave emotional scars deep enough even to result in a diagnosis of Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PSTD). 

Trauma is not as rare occurrence as we might like to believe, and trauma is not reserved only for the unthinkably shocking and horrific events “of the world.” The American Psychological Association shares this poignant definition and statistic from the 2008 Presidential Task Force on Post-traumatic Stress Disorder and Trauma in Children and Adolescents:

“A significant number of children in American society are exposed to traumatic life events. A traumatic event is one that threatens injury, death, or the physical integrity of self or others and also causes horror, terror, or helplessness at the time it occurs. Traumatic events include sexual abuse, physical abuse, domestic violence, community and school violence, medical trauma, motor vehicle accidents, acts of terrorism, war experiences, natural and human-made disasters, suicides, and other traumatic losses. In community samples, more than two-thirds of children report experiencing a traumatic event by age 16.”

And then, are all the parents raising these children, who themselves, have been subjected to traumatic experiences, and are now having to parent, oftentimes without adequate emotional, financial, and societal support. Many still carry wounds of their own childhood, introducing an additional burden of generational trauma. 

Add to this, the fact that many parents who are dealing with poverty and discrimination have greatly increased rates of exposure to traumatic events – making them even more at risk – and we can begin to understand how prevalent trauma really is, and why many of us believe that “healing from trauma” should be a top societal priority.

How Can We Begin To Heal Our Trauma?

After many years of living uncomfortably – and now relatively comfortably – around trauma, here are my thoughts as to the pieces I think are most important for recovery.

  • Tell your story. And make sure the person that hears it knows how to listen. Don’t edit yourself or take care of your listener. Open up and see what happens. For more on how to do this, you can listen to our podcast episode about Hand in Hand’s powerful and effective tool of Listening Partnerships.
  • Assess the true damage. Not just what happened, but all the ways in which trauma has lasted beyond its initial impact. In this telling, try to stick to the hard facts of what happened, those details of what cannot now be changed.
  • Separate Fact from Story. This is the tricky piece: See if, in the loving hands of a good and caring listener, you can begin to peel those actual facts of what happened away from the story you tell yourself and others of what has happened, and what it has meant for you. Look for ways that you can re-write that story in a way that leaves you more empowered. 

What i’ve learned is that when we re-write the story, we can choose to tell ourselves and others what it is we want to believe. This process is far from easy, for sure, but is possible. Here is an example of how I used the process to re-write the story of my son’s traumatic birth.

Re-Writing A Traumatic Pregnancy

FACT: When my eldest son was 5 months in utero we found out about his rather severe heart defect and were told his condition was incompatible with life.

FACT: Our world came crashing down that day because (STORY): we felt so incredibly unlucky and filled with a worry and anxiety that felt heavy and impenetrable.

NEW STORY: Ultimately, what we came to was that he had decided to be born, and we were his chosen parents. We chose to ride this ride together, whatever route it took us. We chose to embrace the whirlwind and the unknowingness. Following this…

NEW CHOICES: We only worked with doctors who saw hope and possibility, and chose our surgeons and care team by those who could see a positive finish line. We asked our community for prayers and love and eliminated all unnecessary distractions and negativity from our daily lives.

FACT: We had a beautiful birth and he made it through multiple open heart surgeries in his first few months of life.

FACT: I did wind up with PTSD that I then had to work through as well, but all in all, we made it through connected, stronger, and more full of love than ever.

THE NEW STORY BECOMES THE STORY OF OUR FAMILY: When my son had to have another unexpected open heart surgery at the age of nine, the story we told him was one of joy and courage, and how lucky he is to know how much he matters to so many people. We also, of course, made room for all the other feelings too. But that thread of hope is woven tightly into all of our family’s stories about this challenging diagnosis.

In this case, the true “damage” was that my son and our family had to go through those surgeries to save his life, and that his heart has a prosthetic valve and scar tissue from multiple surgeries.

This was non-negotiable.

But this does not have to mean that he will not have a great and hopefully long life.

The story we told ourselves about that experience was actually malleable, so we picked a story we liked and could be excited to wake up to each morning.

Motherhood Re-ignited My Trauma, And I Began Deep-Healing

The truth is that my son’s medical issue was not my first rodeo with trauma.

In fact, my own childhood offered me plenty of chances to get face to face with a multitude of traumatic experiences. I have an extremely high ACES score and accordingly, was very likely to have major social and health challenges which include depression, suicide, drug use, promiscuity, STDs, impaired childhood memory, and obesity. Some of which I will admit I did experience when I was a young adult. (Curious what the ACES Score refers to? You can learn all about it here.)

Interestingly, I definitely did notice a correlation between the trauma I had experienced as a child and the “drama” I experienced as a young adult. I would go so far as to say my early 20’s were cycles of trauma of my own making. It was what I knew deep in my bones, and I got good at manufacturing it. As weird as it sounds, it made me feel at home even though I didn’t like it. As I got older, I became more and more aware of the cost of living this way. And at some point, that cost was too much.

It was time to heal.

Tools Focused on Connection Made My Healing Possible

Somehow, through the confusion, I sought help and comfort and growth and found it. In therapy, women’s circles, and wilderness adventures. In meditation, reading, and friends. And in time. These things all helped a lot, and I did indeed heal substantially, enough to think I had fully healed by my 30’s.

Until I had children just a few short years later, and a whole new level of trauma suddenly surfaced.

A kind of trauma that could only be reignited by becoming a mother.

Suddenly all the control and composure and balance that I had learned went out the window. My body felt hijacked, and so did my mind. The lack of sleep, the constant needs of others, the visceral memories of my own childhood – it was all too much.

I felt swallowed up and panic ensued. I was spiraling down, as I had at other times in my life but yet this was different. It had felt ok when I felt pain as a child. Hard, but ok. It was hard but ok when I made not great choices as a young adult. But once I had my children, my ability to become overwhelmed and act out had a whole new level of repercussions. I could not – WOULD NOT – mess this up. My children mattered too much to me. And I was absolutely determined to be the kind of mother I had always felt in my heart that I would and could be.

I searched for quite some time to find my way out of what felt like a sinkhole in those first few years of parenting.

Until I found Hand in Hand Parenting.

These powerful tools put all the trauma healing work I had danced around into a sharp focus. The tools gave me clarity. They gave me boundaries. And most of all, they worked. For me, and for my children.

Special Time allowed me to see my children as separate from me, and practice a deep level of connection that I knew had a timed ending, so I felt safe enough to commit.

Playlistening taught me to lighten up. Not everything is a crisis. In fact, many crises are averted by adding play into the mix. Not to mention, feelgood giggles are just plain healing!

Staylistening taught me that sadness has a wisdom all its own. And that it doesn’t go on forever. It has a natural rhythm and learning to ride it and respect it without trying to control it was profoundly empowering and freeing.

Setting Limits gave me the gift of learning how to lead my family based on the values my husband and I had, and being able to see measurable progress towards the life we wanted.

Listening Partnerships gave me the ability to do any of this at all. It cleaned me up in a very deep way and also broke my desire to judge or fix. This tool taught me empathy – for myself and others.

One by one these tools of connection afforded me the deep inner nourishment I had longed for all along. Here it was: the power of play, the wisdom of storytelling, the deep human need for listening and being heard. All of it spoke to my heart and gave me the missing pieces to my journey. It is no surprise really, as the Hand in Hand tools are a very trauma-informed approach to parenting, helping promote attachment, regulation and competency in both the caregiver and the child, in a manner that is empowered and future-oriented.  To learn more, see this excellent post on how Hand in Hand relates to the ARC Framework here.

From Hurt to Healing To Feeling Blessed By My Experiences

Today, I feel healed and even blessed by my experiences in life. ALL of them. Even the ones that still give me that wincing empty blow in my abdomen as I recall them. They are my teachers, my signposts of how far we have all come, and they fill my heart with empathy as I help others now, being a helping hand to those still finding their way.

I am not saying it is easy to recover from trauma, nor that we can all recover from trauma. Nor that all trauma is necessarily recoverable from. But in many instances, recovery is irrefutably possible. Look at Elizabeth Smart, who was kidnapped and tortured for many months as a young teen, and has gone on to have a full life, refusing to be defined by the highly traumatic events of her past. You may even have members of your own family who have overcome trauma with help and good support. If you look around with fresh eyes, you might find the miracle of recovery has been hiding in plain sight all along.

Perhaps whether or not we recover has less to do with what has or has not happened to us, and more to do with what tools we have at our disposal for retelling that story in such a way that we can heal.

And having those around us who can hold our story with love, compassion, and hope. Their love lights the way. There is a path.

I know that having those made all the difference to me.

If you have a story you are ready to tell and retell, if it calls for it, I hope you might consider reaching out. We’re here, and we’re ready to listen.

“Just as despair can come to one only from other human beings, hope, too, can be given to one only by other human beings.” – Elie Wiesel, survivor of the Holocaust

Abigail Wald, Hand in Hand Podcast, instructor and founder of Real Time ParentingAbigail Wald is a mother of two boys, certified Hand in Hand Instructor and the founder of Real Time Parenting. You can listen to Abigail tell her experiences using Hand in Hand Parenting tools every week in the Hand in Hand Parenting Podcast, and you can work with Abigail directly by contacting her at Real Time Parenting. Ask about her 30-Day Re-Set and learn to re-write your parenting story and help your family thrive.

 

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