A Guest Post by Miranda Fairhall
When my husband and I chose parenthood through adoption, I knew that I would be mothering a child who carried deep hurt. These days, children are generally removed due to adversity in their birth families, so trauma is inevitable. I did the reading and training in readiness for being the mum I wanted to be.
Well, turns out it is one thing to be in the know… and another to be in the reality.
Trying to parent the effects of these early hurts is something else. And it isn’t just parents of adopted children that see aggression coming from their children. Any child that has stuffed down feelings about experiences they find fearful can turn to aggression as an outlet. And many of us find that aggressive behaviour difficult to handle calmly.
3 Understandings That Helped Me Respond More Calmly to my Child’s Aggressive Behavior
I truly thought I would be able to handle aggressive outbursts (after all I’d done the reading!) but in those first few years, it was a super struggle for me to stay calm and contained in the way that was needed. I desperately Googled for help. I desperately needed to know how to be the warm, loving, connected mum I’d read about. A mum who could meet her child in the midst of lashing out wildly, or kicking and hitting or, as it was in my daughter’s case, through verbal attacks.
When thankfully I stumbled on Hand in Hand Parenting, I learned three key things that helped me trust I could be that mum. These days, I have confidence I can be there for my daughter when she leans to aggression.
Here are the three things I’ve come to understand about aggressive behaviour and how I can respond calmly.
Understanding 1: Learning Where the Aggression Came From
My daughter was only 2 when she arrived in our family, chock full of what I interpreted as grief. But it flowed out, not as tears, but as angry defiance and meltdowns. I could not understand why there were no tears. I mean isn’t that what sadness looks like? Lots of tears? Why were there such volatile outbursts in someone so small?
I am a trained psychotherapist but taking Hand in Hand Parenting’s Starter Class enhanced my awareness and understanding of children’s emotions. I began to see her meltdowns in a different light.
Soon I could see that she was carrying a truckload of stress and it was throwing her into survival mode. Her angry outbursts showed us the overwhelming fear that had a grip on her. I learnt that under the age of 3 a child’s brain is not yet developed enough to allow self-regulation, instead it relies on a calm and regulated adult to learn and develop this possibility.
I also learnt that the brain doesn’t fully develop until into the 20’s and this concept of neuroplasticity gave me hope.
Seeing my role as her primary carer was essential, and it provided me the impetus to change.
This reframing of aggressive behaviour gave me perspective. I could see that she was having a problem not being a problem. Her aggressive behavior was her way of asking for help as best she could. Rather than trying to manipulate me or negatively control me with her outbursts, I suddenly saw them as her bids for connection, and I learned to lean into them.
The Starter Class introduced tools that helped me to loosen her fear. We used play to ease the tension, and a one-on-one time tool called Special Time to build our connection. I started to keep firm on bringing limits gently, and when she got angry because of them, I saw it not as defiance but as a release of her hurts and fears. I became better able to stay close as a safe container and listen through her outbursts until the moment where she calmed.
Then, it was like the sun would come out and my daughter would radiate cooperation, warmth, and thoughtfulness. Sometimes she’d even make a big developmental a leap, finding new confidence, and increase her ability to tolerate transitions or even have a go at something new.
But staying close and listening didn’t come easily to me. Far from it! Faced with what I now call her “über Passionate Emotional Expressiveness” (yes, aggression) I could become a wildebeest lost to my own emotion.
I’d find myself unable to collect, unable to be the grown up, I needed to be, or the mum, I wanted to be.
Understanding 2: Why I was struggling
The second big revelation was a linchpin moment of awareness, when I came to understand that in the heat of the moment my own memories of past hurts were being wrenched into the here and now.
This restimulation is common for parents and stems from events or hard times at certain ages or stages that left us hurt. They are quiet whispers of times gone by that left a wound, likely untended, often unresolved, and that carry lingering pain. We tend to plaster over them and ignore so we can march on with the every day, and we are all survivors of them. But as much as we’d like to think out of sight, out of mind, somehow parenting brings them back.
Now, I like to think of them as a mirror of opportunity. They can invite healing and growth if we are willing.
The idea that I was reacting to forgotten memory, shone a light on why my reactions to my daughter’s aggressive outbursts felt illogical, over the top and out of my control.
I wanted to respond to her with love, with warmth and connection, yet at those times, I felt frozen in limbo when I was faced with that aggressive energy, and no matter how much I wanted to, just couldn’t shake free.
I could see that what I was learning about my child’s emotions, was also true for me. I was experiencing what is known as an ‘amygdala hijack.’ Overwhelmed by stress, my emotional mid-brain was signalling “emergency” and rather than engage in good thinking, I would flip my lid, as Dan Siegel says, and drop into the primitive lower brain where every action is about survival.
As I fought, it didn’t look pretty. I’d scare myself as well as my daughter, which only escalated the situation.
Maybe you’re wondering what this looked like? It could be as simple as my daughter tossing her bowl of food in frustration. I’d suddenly become “monster mum” lifting her out of her chair to face the music. At other times, I thought I was holding it together tremendously during a major meltdown as she dragged heavy things out of the room, or threatened to throw things that might break. But as she lashed out she and made physical contact with me I’d snap! This could be considered a fair enough reaction, you may say, but I didn’t want to be this mum!
I’d always sensed I could do this differently, and it turns out I can.
I can meet aggressive energy with love and understanding.
The way to this place has been through Listening Partnerships.
Understanding 3: Realising the Power Of Having My Own Person to Listen
A Listening Partnership is where you pair up with another parent and switch turns just listening to one another. You don’t need to know the other parent well to get started you just need to feel confident they will be open to listening. One person speaks for a set amount of time and the other listens, giving warm attention and acceptance to all that is said, and conveying a sense of confidence you will figure things out. And then you swap.
I found being heard like this to be incredibly empowering.
The relief a Listening Partner provides is palpable. To not be judged for having a day when I wanted to quit as a mum was a gift that helped me shed the tension of shame and guilt that I wasn’t being the parent I had imagined I would be. In my eyes, I was way off the mark in my parenting, but with my partner’s warmth and caring, I came to have compassion for myself, to recognise I was doing my best.
I remember one time when I was tackling my reactiveness to the verbal assaults my daughter forcefully and aggressively lobbed in my direction. I recalled how I had a strong sense of wanting to cover her mouth hard, to block the sound and to tell her to shut up.
I was sharing this and feeling it as though I were back in the room with my daughter when suddenly I was struck by fear.
“What was I afraid of?”
Sure, there was the fear of her growing up into some uncaring, nasty person, but that wasn’t it.
“What was I afraid of?” I asked myself, while my partner listened.
That action actually felt like an act of protection. Then it came to me – it felt like I was either covering or having my mouth covered and I could hear a warning, “Stop making so much noise, it’s dangerous!”
There it was, the restimulation.
Growing up in our house, it wasn’t a good idea to make too much noise or get too exuberant. Behaviors like that were met with threats and most often getting sent away from the family. That exclusion felt to me like rejection and the overwhelming sense of abandonment struck terror into my heart.
In my listening partnership I sat with the fear and it gave the feelings some resolution. I was tested that very evening as my daughter launched more verbal aggression at me. But instead of rising to the bait, I found my centre, and I found I could playfully bat the verbal threats away – much to her giggles and delight.
Peace was restored, and my child moved through the evening without any further combat.
When I give time to a Listening Partnership, when I reflect on restimulation and offload the stress, my ability to sit with big aggressive feelings and outbursts expands.
A New Beginning: Free from the Grip of Aggression
I no longer fear the fear that gets triggered by my daughter’s aggression. Six years on from joining our family, the physical aggression is minimal and sporadic. The words are less hurtful and I recognise our kids have got to have an outlet for the pent-up energy fear brings on.
This shift feels almost like magic!
I still lose it on occasion and I expect to do so as I enter new ages and stages of my daughter’s development – I’m human after all.
But now I have the understanding and a way to help myself so I respond to my daughter and the needs she hides behind aggression, rather than to my inner hurt child.
And that is how I learned to meet aggressive moments with love and compassion
More resources for responding to a child with aggressive behavior
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Get a chapter of our book: Special Time builds closeness and safety for an aggressive child. Learn more about how it works and how you can run it in this chapter on Special Time from our book
Our self-guided course helps you understand what drives your child’s difficult behaviors, and shares practical tools and support. Learn more about the class Helping Your Child with Aggression
Meet the Instructor
Miranda Fairhall is a qualified psychotherapist, a Certified Hand in Hand Parenting by Connection Instructor and among other things an ‘Aussie’ living in London with her English husband and their daughter. She discovered Hand in Hand Parenting soon after adopting in 2011.